Update on Doing Better

Well, it worked. Sorta.

I set out from home today with the intent to force myself out of my lazy habitual niche and do better at everything I could today, and I didn't get off to such a great start. Yearbook I was more productive than usual, but mostly because I had a major project (heap of work... any of you who have ever cut anything out in Photoshop, I've done forty cut outs in the past two days of class) shoved on me five days before our absolute deadline. Thanks, Yearbook. In my other classes, things didn't go quite so well. I've had a terrible habit lately of falling asleep in my classes... not sleeping through the whole thing, just dozing off for ten minutes or so. But sometimes that's ten minutes of vital notes that leaves me crippled for the homework assignment and such. English I didn't miss out on so much, and Seminary I just feel bad when I nod off, but when I fall asleep in Math... goodness, it's a nightmare. I don't really know what to do. I admit I haven't been getting as much sleep as I should be, but I really have been trying. :/ Maybe I should start drinking caffeine.

Anywho, as I got out of school and headed off to work, I resolved that I would be a fantastic employee and have a great mood about today. Even when I screwed up a few things, I didn't take it to heart. I tend to be way over sensitive about my mistakes at work, and a lot of times they'll ruin my whole day. But today, I tried something new. I didn't let them get to me, and I shrugged them off. Of course, there was nothing big, it was just tiny issues that were easily resolved. Still, those can get me down too. And today they didn't. I don't think you realize how proud I am of myself for that- I feel like I learned something about attitude today.

After work, I got home, had dinner, and here's another drastic change- I sat down and did my hour and a half of math homework, even though there were bits of it I didn't understand. I at least tried, whereas a lot of times I end up trying to do my homework at school before my Math class. This was different. It felt good.

Overall, I would say my private "Come to Jesus" moment really worked out well. Now the real question is, how long can I make it last?

Ugh. I'm a little disgusted with myself lately. I really want to change.